…maybe you’re just in the mood for something else. Jeez.
You know that old diet trope “If you’re not hungry enough to eat an apple, you’re not hungry”? I used to live by that — or tried to, anyway. But man oh man, I just never ever ever wanted an apple. And that provided me with black-and-white proof of what diet culture had been trying to tell me all along: my hunger was all fake and imagined. “If only I had any self control whatsoever, I could rise above all these non-apple cravings!”
Eesh. How messed up is that?
Fast forward five or so years, after my own six-month reset and transition to intuitive eating, and surprise surprise: turns out I’m just not really into apples. I bet I’ve eaten like ten apples over five years. Seriously. When I want a snack, I usually want something salty. When I want fruit, I go for a banana. When I want something sweet, I’m probably headed for dark chocolate. So sue me, Michael Pollan!
One of the bazillion ways that diet culture sucks is that it convinces you that you don’t know what you know. It is the anti-intuition. It undermines your trust in your own instincts, which can slowly but surely erode your entire sense of self.
Apples are not a super-special gatekeeper to hunger. They’re just apples. You’re in charge. And Michael Pollan does not know you or your tastebuds. You’re in charge.
If you’re not hungry enough for an apple, ask yourself what actually sounds good. Then go get some, and enjoy every bite. Stop letting mind games dictate your life, and try being mindful instead.