My body is not a topic

I can’t believe how much body and diet talk I hear every single day — at my job. Politics are inappropriate because they are so divisive, but trashing our bodies? Yes please, lots of that. We can all agree on hating our bodies.

Gross.

The billion-dollar diet industry has made bodies, especially female bodies, a topic of discussion, dissection, dissatisfaction. But not mine. Not today, satan.

What the heck am I supposed to say in those awful, awkward diet culture moments at work? I wish I knew. I’m still working on that. But this is what I want to say:

I have drawn lines around myself. I decide where they go. I get to decide who is allowed to cross them, and under what circumstances. My body isn’t up for debate or discussion. My terms, my terminology.

I don’t want to talk about how much I ate, or didn’t eat.

I don’t want to answer questions about how I exercise, or don’t.

I don’t want to talk about how my body looks or looked or could look.

It’s no one’s business but mine.

I can’t believe I have to say this out loud.

I will not match other people’s negativity as a show of solidarity. I will not spend another day on that sinking ship, but please — join me here on solid ground.

I spent too many years thinking I was too big. Now I just want to think.

I spent too many years trying to be smaller. Now I just want to be.

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  1. Tammy says:

    Thank you for the new article and your inspiration. This makes a lot of sense and yes you have to say it out loud unfortunately. Thank you again

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, Tammy! It means so much to me that you took the time to read and comment. Let’s keep saying these things out loud until the world starts listening! All the best to you!

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  2. So true! I am so sick of constant talk about dieting and gym. Enough! I can’t control other people but I can control some things. Eg a while back I made a rule that whenever a person or page on Facebook posts something about dieting, I unfollow! It’s amazing how many pseudo healthy pages only talk about weight loss! I’d rather fill my feed with puppies thank you very much

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  3. Love this article, you have a great perspective. I will join you! One thing I did awhile ago is I made a rule that whenever a pseudo health facebook page posted yet another dysfunctional post about dieting, cleanses or bikini bodies, I would unfollow! My fb feed is a much happier place and full of friends and puppies as it should be 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much!! I LOVE your facebook rule — unfollowing is so easy and so therapeutic! Less pseudo health junk, more friends and puppies!! Thank you so much for your comment 🙂

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  4. Vinnie says:

    I suffer from binge eating. I’m great all day and then night comes and I am up 1 to 3 times eating. Not grazing, eating full on meals. I hike and Zumba but I’m 300 + lbs. This is killing me. I’m headed twords weight loss surgery or death. I’m 40 and I am at the end of my rope.

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    1. Vinnie, I am so, so sorry to hear that you are going through this! First and foremost, I want you to know that you are not alone. Binge eating at night is extremely common. What we now refer to as binge eating actually used to be called “night eating syndrome” back in the 1950s when the disorder was first identified.

      One of the main risk factors for developing binge eating is food restriction, so if you are now or have ever been on a diet, it may very well have caused or played a role in what you are experiencing today. Without knowing your situation or any specifics, it sounds like your body is experiencing the physiological and psychological effects of hunger. It is possible that you may not be feeding your body as much as it needs to be fed — I know that sounds counterintuitive when you’re trying to lose weight, but undereating during the day just fuels binge eating at night. Our society sends the horrible message that people of certain weights SHOULD go to bed hungry, SHOULD starve themselves, SHOULD restrict their eating at all times. This is simply untrue. These are the same symptoms that would have a thin person diagnosed with anorexia, and it is reckless and harmful to promote these disordered behaviors strictly based on body type.

      The reality of “health” is a much bigger picture than the number on a scale. It involves myriad factors like blood pressure, cholesterol levels, resting heart rate, etc, and people of all sizes can be in good health and/or seek to improve those health factors in a way that is much more sustainable than pursuing extreme weight loss. It sounds like you are already living an active lifestyle, and that is a more important component to health than the size pants that you wear.

      Have you considered reaching out to a counselor to help you stop binge eating and discuss the possibility of weight-neutral health goals? If you can manage it financially, I think one-on-one, individualized support would be invaluable to help you work through your frustrations and concerns. It’s very, very important to look for a nutritionist who is specifically versed in Intuitive Eating and Health at Every Size who will not make judgments based on your weight alone — otherwise, you could end up paying for yet another restrictive, unsustainable diet that will drive you deeper into binge eating.

      If you are interested, here are just a few registered dietitians whose perspectives I really admire. They are based around the US and offer virtual/Skype consultations:

      Aaron Flores, Registered Dietitian and Nutritionist (RDN)
      http://www.bvmrd.com/work-with-aaron

      Glenys Oyston, RDN
      https://daretonotdiet.wordpress.com/work-with-me/

      Valery Kallen, RD
      http://www.valerykallen.com/work-together/

      Beth Rosen, RD
      http://goodnessgraciousliving.com/blog/work-with-me/

      I hope that this is the beginning of a new, happier chapter of your life — not the end of your rope. I am truly honored that you have taken the time to visit my blog, and I hope that by accepting your body and appetite without judgement or shame, binge eating will soon become a distant memory. I promise there is light at the end of this tunnel.

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  5. Tammy says:

    Vinnie, I feel your pain. I hope it’s ok to suggest something too.

    I don’t know if you’re a reader but I stumbled upon the book “the foodist” by Darya Rose – her motto is how to get healthy and lose weight without dieting – great read. You can find her and her long battle with weight issues on her website, Summer Tomato.

    I have received much help and breakthrough but I still have some issues and am putting these things into practice, it’s a journey. I recently went to get further help, I had my first appt. a couple weeks back and today will be my second. But the shrink recommended a book “intuitive eating” by Evelyn Tribole, I picked it up from the library I’m only on page 16 but it’s making tons of sense and follows along with this website and beliefs.

    There is another book I stumbled upon – “50 ways to sooth yourself without food”

    I’ve had some other deep revelation this week (being a christian) but I’m hesitant to share since it’s supernatural.

    I speak life and breakthrough, we can have V I C T O R Y ! Keep on trying, keep getting up, you are not alone.

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    1. These are great suggestions, thank you so much, Tammy! I am not personally familiar with The Foodist, but I can wholeheartedly 10000% vouch for the book Intuitive Eating (available on Amazon here). It healed my relationship with food and truly changed my life…my blog is a love letter to the brilliance of Intuitive Eating! I love it so much and I hope it helps you too.

      Thank you again, Tammy! And Vinnie, we are all in your corner rooting for you!

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